I'm really in despair, bereavement, muzziness and high on anxiety. Simply baffle about lot of things..just don't know what to think anymore, don't know who to trust..*sigh**shrug*
Everything is just like a badinage. Feel so used! How did I get caught up in this mess? It causes me disfigurement, impasse and it escalate my heart & mind. *sigh deeply*
I used not to be bother with littlest things, used to be able to just ignore about lots of stuff but why do I feel so deprive over these matters? I simply don't understand!
Everything that I've done, often comes from the heart and full of sincerity. Not a tiniest bits in my soul that I expect reciprocation nor appreciation from others. But now it looks like I was trying to buy friendship and happiness in exchange for all those things I did for some individuals. It never crossed my mind for things to go that way and I'm really baffle and shock to learn that it's happening to me in these modern day and age.
OMG!!! What have I done? Why is my good intention being manipulated & misunderstood? Why do others that I respected, done what they did & why can't they be sincere with me? Am I really that idiotically dumb? is this karma? but then I just can't seem to remember what I've done to deserve this when all I did was only trying to live my life and help those that I know whenever, however I possibly can..*sigh*
I'm no angel, just another human being created by the Al Mighty. I know I made mistake and keep on making more for as long as I live but I'm trying to improve my life and learn from all the mistake I've done! And not a single day in my life that I'm not thankful for the opportunity given to me.
I know those peoples will laugh in delight knowing that they managed to fool me. Just so you know, those things that you managed to squeeze from me did not burn a hole in my purse at all but it breaks my heart to know that you people are behaving like uncivilized morons.
Folks, those things that I mentioned up there, it's not even an ounce of problems that left me baffle. There are few others that I just don't know how to begin jotting down. Maybe I just wanna let it stay in my head for a while longer and hope for the best.
I promised myself from now on, I refuse to let this thing get the best of me. I choose to leave it to Allah the Al Mighty, as I solemnly believe no one knows what's best for us and what lie ahead than the Mighty Creator..well.."what goes around comes around"
Before I end this entry, I would like to take this opportunity to tell my 'cess that I am very sorry and glad it's just a misunderstanding. Thank you for saying it wasn't meant for me. Don't get me wrong but as promised I didn't go through your stuff anymore but a sacred dove spread the news to me. My sincere apology again to you my 'cess and forgive me for being silly! Hence please take note that if you happen to read my previous entry, rest assured that it's not in any way realted to you. It's merely a coincidence. Thnx again! emmuaxxx & huge bearly hugz for you..
For my beloved bffl, my online bestfriend, who is dangerously sweet and my sisters..Thank you for cheering me up and helping me to get through this ordeal. Thank you for willing to be tormented by me with all the foolishness and for wasting your time and energy to help me uplift my spirit high again. Sorry to drag you all into my problems. Thank you all for being there when I'm in need, God bless.. xoxoxo*big group hugz*
Dearest pepz, don't simply thank God for the vast blessing, but show your thankfulness by being a blessing to others. I believe that when things aren't working as we expect them to be, it could be GOD way to make us grow. Bear in mind, the process may not be easy, but will certainly bring out the best in us..Have faith in The Creator folks!
Got to leave now..Take care, stay safe & be good aite! Toodles>>>EWey!!!
Everything is just like a badinage. Feel so used! How did I get caught up in this mess? It causes me disfigurement, impasse and it escalate my heart & mind. *sigh deeply*
I used not to be bother with littlest things, used to be able to just ignore about lots of stuff but why do I feel so deprive over these matters? I simply don't understand!
Everything that I've done, often comes from the heart and full of sincerity. Not a tiniest bits in my soul that I expect reciprocation nor appreciation from others. But now it looks like I was trying to buy friendship and happiness in exchange for all those things I did for some individuals. It never crossed my mind for things to go that way and I'm really baffle and shock to learn that it's happening to me in these modern day and age.
OMG!!! What have I done? Why is my good intention being manipulated & misunderstood? Why do others that I respected, done what they did & why can't they be sincere with me? Am I really that idiotically dumb? is this karma? but then I just can't seem to remember what I've done to deserve this when all I did was only trying to live my life and help those that I know whenever, however I possibly can..*sigh*
I'm no angel, just another human being created by the Al Mighty. I know I made mistake and keep on making more for as long as I live but I'm trying to improve my life and learn from all the mistake I've done! And not a single day in my life that I'm not thankful for the opportunity given to me.
I know those peoples will laugh in delight knowing that they managed to fool me. Just so you know, those things that you managed to squeeze from me did not burn a hole in my purse at all but it breaks my heart to know that you people are behaving like uncivilized morons.
Folks, those things that I mentioned up there, it's not even an ounce of problems that left me baffle. There are few others that I just don't know how to begin jotting down. Maybe I just wanna let it stay in my head for a while longer and hope for the best.
I promised myself from now on, I refuse to let this thing get the best of me. I choose to leave it to Allah the Al Mighty, as I solemnly believe no one knows what's best for us and what lie ahead than the Mighty Creator..well.."what goes around comes around"
Before I end this entry, I would like to take this opportunity to tell my 'cess that I am very sorry and glad it's just a misunderstanding. Thank you for saying it wasn't meant for me. Don't get me wrong but as promised I didn't go through your stuff anymore but a sacred dove spread the news to me. My sincere apology again to you my 'cess and forgive me for being silly! Hence please take note that if you happen to read my previous entry, rest assured that it's not in any way realted to you. It's merely a coincidence. Thnx again! emmuaxxx & huge bearly hugz for you..
For my beloved bffl, my online bestfriend, who is dangerously sweet and my sisters..Thank you for cheering me up and helping me to get through this ordeal. Thank you for willing to be tormented by me with all the foolishness and for wasting your time and energy to help me uplift my spirit high again. Sorry to drag you all into my problems. Thank you all for being there when I'm in need, God bless.. xoxoxo*big group hugz*
Dearest pepz, don't simply thank God for the vast blessing, but show your thankfulness by being a blessing to others. I believe that when things aren't working as we expect them to be, it could be GOD way to make us grow. Bear in mind, the process may not be easy, but will certainly bring out the best in us..Have faith in The Creator folks!
Got to leave now..Take care, stay safe & be good aite! Toodles>>>EWey!!!
my sweet sister luv u so much..stay cool ya..really appreaciate wif our relationship.u r very gud sis and gud listener for me.One of the person that i really trust in my life is U my pretty sis.Thanks for being my sweety sis till now and always cheering me up when i have a problem.Im really appreciate it and sorry if i've done any mistakes.Thanks po eberitink.